is this thing On?

right then.. im not gonna make this an emO rant, however, Id like to take this quick moment to clear my thoughts.

So lets begin...

lately, Ive been doin my head in, on top of of the lack of sleep, malnutrition, and neglecting whats important to me, ive been letting this foul evil entity get the best of me. Ive done everything in my power to get the FUCK out of being in this position, but certain people just love to push my buttons. Im not one to let shit slide... im gonna let you know. I don't care for rude arrogant, condescending, conniving, rude ungrateful people. Sure sure it takes more effort to hate (well not hate, hate is such a harsh word) lets just say i dont care for you but DAMN you disturb me. I'm THIS close to bursting and declaring war.

Test me.



on that note...! i really like this song haha.. enjoy

Lo Hecho Esta Hecho

Como Fue? Que Paso? Otra Vez? Aqui Estoy... que coraje.... lo hecho esta hecho...

blow by blow,
i didn't see it coming
blow by blow,
sucker punch
rushes in,
here to stay
rushes in,
you are here to stay
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control,
think about it
feel it in my bones
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control

i feel you in my bones
you're knocking at my windows
you're slow to lettin me go
and i know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones

left hook,
I didn't see it comin
left hook,
you've got dead aim
rushes out,
run away
rushes out,
you always run away
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control,
think about it
feel it in my bones
what rushes into my heart and my skull
i can't control

i feel you in my bones
you're knockin at my windows
you're slow to letting me go
and i know this feeling oh, so
this feeling in my bones

i feel it in my bones
and then my skull feels pressure
i feel it in my bones
i feel it in my skull

i take a breath, take a breath
with me blow by blow
take a break, take a break from you
you are here to stay
i take my heart out of my chest
i just don't need it anymore
take my hand up again
i just don't need it anymore

THE SEPTEMBER iSSUE

HEY THERE.



oh what a couple of days its been...i recently volunteered for my very first fashion show and i have to say THE MACY*S PASSPORT 2009 FASHION SHOW was quite an experience. All the glitz and behind the scene action was rather intriguing, exhilarating, and inspiring. ive got so many ideas in my head they're spewing out! [above is a glimpse of past passport shows, but gives you an idea of what i experienced.] i aspire to be involved in the fashion industry even more now. Although ive stumbled upon a few bumps that have detoured my plan, i still remain focused and my ambitions will remain solid.

i look forward to what life has to offer me. I look forward to my dreams coming true. I am thankful. God willing i will succeed.

enjoy this hitter... i LOVE this track.

LiKE A DRUG

"Don't look to the approval of others for your mental stability."

"A respectable appearance is sufficient to make people more interested in your soul."

"The most important thing is to do things, not to have done them."

"Success nullifies. You then have to do it again, preferably differently."

"I have no scene. I go everywhere. I adapt."

"Throwing money out the window brings money back in through the front door."

-K.L.

cHAPTER E11_EVEN

Que te vaya bien y Dios te bendiga

"you were unaware that diamonds came with debt"

ohh those silly games life plays... I don't know what to do with the cards i just got dealt...
2 reasons: ONE i dont know how to play cards and TWO ..."[i] gotta case of the fake people"..

"You can create your own situation by speaking positive words into your own life...
You have the power of life and death in your tongue.
Only worry about what our creator thinks" - Diane Medina-Torres

i invested a lot and came out bankrupt in the end. ill let karma take over from here cos i got to much to do, PEACE.

[as of now this is irrelevant]

"it really makes you think, you know?"

this agri over analytical friend of mine

makin the most of whats left of this winterish summer we've been having. may i add, its rather fun and very eventful.

oh and this is lorie beth david, my friend with the all first names. LBD would be her alias.

together we paint the town gold, break hearts, and make curious minds wonder, we make a great team.
ask and yee shall recieve.

CHASiNG LiGHTS

how can i be expected to SHINE when you're blocking my light? its a bit draining trying to succeed when negative beings prohibit my success... i feel limited. its rather annoying being put down and just unable to live positive when im tied down. get off my spot light.


"If you say i aim too high from down below well, say it now 'cause when i'm gone you'll be callin' but i won't be at the phone "

can i be blunt?

We'll end up numb from playing video games
and we'll get sick of having sex.
And we'll get fat from eating candy;
as we drink ourselves to death.
We'll stay up late
mixing mix tapes,
photoshopping pictures of ourselves;
as we masterbate to these pixelated images
of strangers fucking themselves.

We are very busy people,
We are very busy people.

There's crusty socks
and stacks of pizza boxes
leading trails straight to the bed.
And when we're done sleeping
we'll stay busy dreaming of the things
that we do not have yet.
Well there's a long list of chores and shit to do
before we play, oh let's just piss away the day.
Crank call the cops down at the station,
just for friendly conversation,
requesting songs they never play;
Let's hear the one that goes like:

We are very busy people,
We are very busy people;
But we've always got time for new friends.
So come on over and knock on our door,
it's open what you waiting for?
We may be sprawled out on the floor,
but we still make lovely company.
Pull up a chair, I'll pour some tea,
We'll shoot the shit, 'bout everything,
till you get sick of politics,
and flip on the TV screen,
we stare at the TV screen.
That Donnie Darko DVD has been playing for a week,
and we know every single word.
I got an iPod like a pirate ship,
I'll sail the sea
with fifty thousand songs I never heard-
And all the best of them go
La la la la la la...
la la la la la la...

Forecast: Cloudy

Recommended attire: something thick, bulletproof if available.

so u've exhausted yourself tryin and u get to a point in which u realize ... it really was not what you expected... and the time you invested? well of course it was taken for granted and wasted, nothing new, in fact ur immune to it, your mind got clouded. u went into it whole heartedly with nothing to lose, except some of your morals and maybe a little dignity. It actually makes you think of what's relevant and frankly it wasnt even worth it. So now ur overdrawn beyond your limit with no ends in sight. u foolishly think... "haha i really wanted this?" though i shot a few blanks i managed to cause somewhat of a ripple effect.

Me clave con Pies Descalzos y sali clavado.

98 degrees and rising.

summer is just around the corner and so is the dreaded farmers tan.

Lets face it i can't keep relying on the good ol' cardigans...

and like me, many have been neglecting the gym memberships... there's just something about the time and progress of getting in shape. However... everything does look better when you're fit and ill be one step closer to Nicole Scherzinger (haha) .. hmm... so maybe i should take one for the team, quit making excuses, and hit the gym to get rid of these wobbly bits..

but until then... "skinny" is the new Black.

ViTAMiN C

[just me and my nig.]

so ive maintained a clean room for quite some time now. having company really helps.

BTW: are there giants too, in the dance? cos this is about life and life isnt about about death.

ahhh graduation time of the year. my younger brother graduated today. someone explain how he graduated before me? and can my family NOT ask if i graduated yet? haha, its hard to explain the movement im living... especially in spanish.

MENTAL NOTE: study abroad, like in England.. and perfect accent, among other things like academics.

Reminder: purchase cool notebook to log thoughts about my book and magazine ideas. and sketches.. should involve sketches.. yea sketches are a must. (look for colour pencils)

Under construction: think, live, and breathe French casual, American casual is just not cuttin it. International mind set in progress.

Effective immediately: STATEMENT PIECES, very important.

the URRUTiCOCHEA men.
can my Dad smile one time? haha.

k CM!

RiGHT THEN...

what an uneventful day. LAZINESS consumed everything. im pretty irked i completely wasted it. i just laid about all day, the most productive thing i did was get my wireless internet fixed.. which took over a fucking hour.

awesome, my dog just pissed on the floor... sigh.

note to self: cool dress socks.

FRESH ahhhh!!

mental note: bow ties for work...O_o

-MAN all the new possibilities and opportunities!

reminder: pick up the new nylOn guy magazine...

may i have your attention please

IM DONE WITH THE SEMESTER!!! now i can sleep in and ride my bike and spend hours catching up on my dvr and uti-lize my gym membership that has been billing me for 7 months and ive only gone 3 times, two of those time i actually worked out... the third the locker ate my money and i spent fighting with the receptionist.. anyway! i refuse to be fat this summer so my goal for june is to lose 10lbs and be under 200lbs ahhahaa, dont judge me if i dont meet my goal.

JUNE 26 27 28 i will be making my way down south if i get the weekend off. i need a getaway!! i wish megabus was still up and running in the bay area.. but thats ok the drive there clears my mind and i can sing as loud as i want and stoge through the whole trip and i can travel everywhere in LA. i can bring my bike too and ride to Cha with heather. its called cha right? k can i get a tall mint/green tea warm thanks. that sounds like fucken HEAVEN right now. ps edc 2 day festival!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which i will be fucken faded for two days straight. and then ill have all of sunday to recover.

anyway so its summer time. hit me up! lets be friends, lets kick it. let me meet your friends. lets have coffee, lets have a drink and a stoge. bond with me. come over and let me come over, lets fall in love, lets LOL!, lets runaway, lets be wreckless!

crOssing the rubicOn

the sounds lost in love.

PJs

im sorry i cant be there to clean up the mess he left.
i regret im still anchored to this area code by debt and lack of funds.
i apologize you don't have the suitable company surrounding you.
i miss the 15 minute drive to san leandro that summer.
i cringe at the reminder 20lbs 3 years later.
im sorry im not there to shield u from harm
too bad im not feet away from fighting your battles
i wish i could temporarily mend your wounds with steve and andre
as u wipe your snot on my shoulder and we toast in our pjs.

bOxing

"I was programmed to be [silent], so I ran..."

I was never even given a chance. Even as an infant I was taken advatage of against my will. It must've set a trend or messed with my psyche. I've constantly battled numerous times not trying to fall on my face everytime I trust and let someone get over on me... even my self at times. I could be my worst enemy, but that's another story.

I'm starting my new year and I'm starting so fresh out the shower. Sorry I've got no time for issues, I'm preoccupied with my priorities. Approx for 25yrs I've been trapped in a box and preoccupied with what doesn't matter. But I've been steppin out slowly and as of today, the first day of my year, I'm walkin away from it and not lookin back.

it's all in the make up

I'm sentimental
So I walk in the rain
I've got some habits
Even I can't explain
I go to the corner
And I end up in Spain
Why try to change me now
I sit and daydream
I've got daydreams galore
Cigarette ashes
There they go on the floor
I go away weekends
And leave my keys in the door
Why try to change me now
Why can't I be more conventional
People talk and they stare
So I try
But that can't be
Cos I can't see
My strange little world
Just go passing me by
let people wonder
Let 'em laugh
Let 'em frown
You know I'll love you
Till the moon's upside down
Don't you remember
I was always your clown
Why try to change me now

laundrOmat

Soap, Powder, Bleach, Towels, Fabric Softner, Dollars, Change, Pants, Socks, Dirty Drawers
I'm Going To The Laundromat...
And Let's Not Forget The Food Stains, Dirt Spots, Head Sets, Chips, Pop, Pay Phones, Clean House. I'm Headed To The Laundromat...

Damn I'm a mess right now, I know the direction I want to head towards. My goals are set, and yet I seem to fall right back to my old ways of neglect, procrastination, carelessness, and then regret. I've lost direction, I'm clouded, and stuck in baggage claim.

How is it that a 24 goin on 25 year old like me is still fuckin up in life? I'm such a mess buhd its no joke. I need to act right, get my shit together, clean the mess, and go get it. I was doin so good until I lost hope takin' these stupid chabot classes that I have no interest in, but must take... not only take, but pass!!

On top of school I have this massive debt I'm trying to pay off. Debt I've acquired by being irresponsible and overly friendly. What do I have to show for it? Damn... nothin but a paycheck that's planned out for me. On the bright side... I'm gettin rid of it slowly, and I plan on being debt free this year.

Top gOal: be responsible, get on track, be so fresh and so clean.

K'bye

hellOoOoo NURSE!!

so, i got my bike...

my mom thought it was a flat screen tv and had already planned out where to put it in my room haha. she told me i shoulda got a tv ahahah. maybe i should get a tv next... or no! i have to get sound stuff for my car cos it sounds bad, hmmmm maybe ill do that this week, since i got more unexpected money from taxes O_o. im supposed to finish reading my book for my english class... instead i napped for hella hours and now im bloggin. anyway, i didnt expect such a big package. actually this is the biggest package ive gotten in my life. i was so anxious and excited! imagine if it was nurtrisystem... i would get food mailed to me. cos thats what they do right? mail u food? yeah right? and then u lose weight haha.

Jules helped me build my bike and fuck im eternally grateful. On top of advice, he gave me a few goodies too, good friend right there. i was told to make a few changes to it, dont ask me what cos i forgot already. i was kinda intimidated to ride infront of everyone cos damn i havnt ridden a bike in a while. and you know how everyone says YOU NEVER FORGET TO RIDE A BIKE? well i promise i forgot and i relearned. i have the soreness to proove it especially the soreness that saddle caused... and let me tell you, its not the business!! haha.

vee and april met up during the construction of this beast.
once Jules shook, April and Vee hopped on Glen and Jenns bikes and we rode to Jays house and back. Well first we took a few practice rounds until i got the hang and balance of the bike...! haha

BUT! as soon as i got the hang of it, with a few wedgie breaks here and there i picked it up. one thing tho.. i need to cut down on steve cos fuck my lungs do not support this habbit! im super anxious to ride around again but im hella busy with school work until tuesday.... fuckme.

on that note: this is my hOtt [girl]friend Sandra, she cheated on me.

k'bye

SAVE THE WHALES

sO after much talk, hype, anticipatiOoOon, wanting, and complaining... i gottems. I ordered my future hobby and workout plan. Im trying to convince everyone in the world to get a fixie bike or a Lily Allen low rider bike and then together we can conquer the world . I think i just upped my cool level some what aswell, well in my opinion! im expecting the package in the mail Friday MARCH 27 according to UPS tracking... soOn enough ill be able to ride with the wind (hahaha), make friends, be active, and coast. So as soon as this 30lb monster package comes in the mail im gonna tear it up, stare at all the parts, and thank God Jules is gonna help me construct this beast. There's also an alleycat race on April the 26th ive been considering on the hush... Why on the hush? well i feel like id be judged if i speak on it, as most of you know, this isnt one of my typical stunts. Thats why only a handfull know about it. Ill ponder on it... after all it is on my birthday and im comin back from Vegas that mornin. What i do know is that im gonna train and sesh almost every night. hahaha wow im hella giddy about this... this is definitely on my priority list. buhd... i need to be koo on stoggin' now tho... forreal... maybe only socially or with a drink. I wont be able to manage tryna ride a bike and stoggin'. So if you wanna save the whales, just get a bike... cos thats what happens right? well maybe in some pay it forward type of way.dot.dot.dot.

I found myself in SF deprived mode... so i rounded up the posse [April.Vee] and hit the freeway... We started off in Japantown, dropped in FATLACE. There's this guy named KENNY that wears cool watermelon vans who works there. He's my idol haha. I purchased a shirt, thanks kenny. After we watched Kenny eat his snacks we decided we needed some of our own. We went inside the market on the corner of the center and we each bought a bag of fizzle soda candies and they bought some nasty ketchup ball chips and seaweed chips i was tricked into eating. Then we went to PIKA PIKA and took dragon ball z pictures. ill scan them next time cos im lazee. Then we headed to Haight st. where i got the piercing i been wanting for about approx four years... it was such an impulsive thing to do... was it the best idea? IDK cos now i walk around with a hoodie and my glasses cos im scared my mexican ass mom is gonna throw a broom at me and demand i take it off... all of course in spanish... it'd go something like this.. "QUITATE ESA CHINGADERA AHORITA MISMO!!" too bad its embedded in my skin and only surgically removable... well thats my new piercing.. DERMAL ANCHOR/SURFACE ANCHOR. i still havnt thought of what works gonna say, but i stocked up on bandaids... i can already hear all the Nelly Ei Ei comments. and that shit was 77 dollars!!! and the fucken piercer had to slice my skin twice cos he didnt make a big enough cut... then he dug it in... it wasnt that bad it was just uncomfortable... BUT as soon as i walk out the door my vision got all white, and my hearing gets drowned out... i was having one of my fucken attacks... for those of you who don't know.. i have an issue with blood, especially my blood... so after a minute and a soda i continue my shopping at stussy... i bought a multi mini sack.. for what? i dont know.. fucken stupid. then i got a marc jacobs jacket from wasteland, score. i paid off my macys account too.

-i should be studying for my psychology exam tomorrow, but i figure im so behind and i have so much to study my long term memory wont retain it... haha.. thats what my exam is about. fuck the bull shit.

k'bye

what should i TITle this? ur sick.

sOOOOOOOOOOO GoOd EvEniNg! dO yOu rEmEmBeR WhEn U UsEd tO TyPe LiKe tHis? bWuAhAHhAhaha i uSeD tO Be PreTTy GoOd. ok enough of that. Welcome to my tit. I made a twitter right? but i dont really have any one following me so whats the point to update it? so can you add me SHORTEEY and make it a point. its funny how im hella typin actin like i have people reading already lolrrr shit how come i laughed out loud really.

-so today at work some elder lady waiting in line says outloud "youre so cute" and i was bagging something up for my customer, and i look up (hella concieted huh? like i knew she was talkin about me already haha) so she's lookin right at me and im kinda puzzed cos it was random.. so i answer "ME?" and she goes, hella bold... "I LOVE YOUR LOOK, YOUR GLASSES, YOUR HAIR, YOUR SWEATER... *blah blah blah* YOU LOOK LIKE [insert old person name here]! i LOVE YOUR LOOK!" and i got hella red cos she embarrassed me, so i just said "THANK YOU" how modest of me ahhahaa. majOr confidence booster one time.

PS i love my glasses, and i hate when people ask me if theyre real. YES they are prescribed... ive been wanting them since i was a senior in highschool.

<===senior in highschoOl haha

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-As im bloggin away, my itunes is playin at random and im amazed at how sexy my musical taste makes me (HAHA!)... OOOoh Especially this jazzy tune "FUCK ME PUMPS". Does Jazz make you feel sexy? sippin' on andre n shit.

-SSIGHHH im in crushcrushcrush with the girl from the second floor at my job. I promise she makes me lose my cool and just breaks my neck so hard. i just wanna be like "U R A Q T Is your Dad a dealer Cause you're dope to me" Vee already introduced her self to her... fucken slut.

-oh! here's a preview of my upcoming post :LOOK!! ========>

hella fOine huh?

k'bye