My weekend getaway gave me a different outlook. From friends to work to my finances, a lot needs to be reevaluated most importantly my future.
Since my return I've realized a lot is lacking from my life. My desire and ambition went out the window when I let my self get lost and comfortable. I began to limit myself, my potential went MIA. It kills me to realize how much time I've wasted prioritizing irrelevant things and people before what is truly important. I knew it all along. Where were my standards and everything I learned from past struggles?
It's unfortunate that it took a simple weekend getaway and a 75 dollar cab ride conversation to enlighten me. The minute I found my self with nothing to do, with an abundance of time feeling rather lonely and powerless I told myself that I wouldn't succumb to this type of behavior. I couldn't allow my self to waste another year wishing to be successful. I won't fill the void with temporary fixes. I really must get to work. I refuse to live pay check to pay check. I have to find my self respect in order to achieve my goals, I must rediscover my self worth In order to be successful and take advantage of opportunities or at-least discover some. From this moment on I musnt pity my self, I have to be an accomplished successful man who can provide for his family who can have anything he desires with hard work. I want to make my parents proud.
"I want to be a free man".
